Best day I ever had...

     On the 27th August 2011, Sunday, we went to a mall to supposedly watched a movie but we decided to just watched on the other day instead because we were running out of time and it was getting late already.

     He asked me what gift would I want for my birthday two days from now. I was hesitant to say anything because I wasn't used being asked of what gift do I want. and then a moment later he asked if I really want a tweety stuffed toy or that we buy a ring for both of us. I was shocked because I've been on a four-year and two-year relationships already and wasn't given or asked even for once if I wanted a ring. Again, I was hesitant to say yes because I was still afraid. There's a lot of things that's bugging me. One is that I thought it was too early for us to have a ring although it's just a promise ring because we are going to be four months in a couple of days next month but he insisted of buying us a ring.

     But then again, we ended up going to the jewelry kiosk and bought a ring. He was the one who chose the ring and it was nice. Simple but elegant. And of course, I find it too expensive for just a gift.

     That day was the happiest day for me. I didn't want anything and anyone that would ruin it. I realized that without searching for it and just having my patience, love has come my way. I know it's too early to say but I'd say it anyway. I think he's the one for me...

Reminiscing...

     I woke up this morning because of his call. Yeah he called again and I don't know why I'd pick up the phone and talked to him. I heard his voice again and wth the feelings come rushing to me again. :( I hate myself for that! I kept thinking of him for almost a week and I didn't expect that he'd call up again. I hate myself because I know he has a girlfriend now and I'm still thinking of him despite of all the hurt he's caused me. I want to forget him but how? I don't want someone courting me and I dunno if I can love another again. :(
     I hope I find someone who can catch my attention again, with my fingers crossed I know he's just out there waiting for me too.

Interview with a writer

     Last wednesday, 23 of March, I interviewed a multi-awarded writer Mr. Dean Francis Alfar at the Robinsons, Galleria. My mom and classmate accompanied me for the interview and I was so nervous at that time because I was afraid that he might not show up or he's a bad attitude but I was totally wrong. Mr. Alfar is a good person and he's just a simple man. When he arrived I thought I was seeing the wrong person because he was just wearing a plain shirt, jogging pants and slippers. See? You won't actually believe his a multi-awarded writer because he remains humble inspite of all he has attained and everything he has. I learned a lot from him not just about writing but also about life. I learned that we should never wait for oppotunities to open on us but we should do things we want and if we fail, at least we tried.

     What I learned most from him is that it is okay to do what you want and pursue your dream but be aware of the people I hurt along the way, be aware of the consequences that my actions take and be ready to stand for my convictions, good or bad. It was a pleasure meeting him and was able to talked to him.

    Now I know what I want to be. I want to be like him someday. I want to write and win an award one day, someday.

     Mr. Alfar and my classmate Rodel with their "pogi" pose. this proves that he is not an intimidating person and he is just easy to get along.

My mama and Mr. Alfar. He said, "I love mothers!"

     I look up to him so much. He said that he would look forward to the books that I will write and the awards that I would get. Oh my! What a challenge! I had a great time talking to him and I wish to see him again one day. Thank you Mr. Dean Francis Alfar!

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A father for me...



     I keep smiLing. I nearLy aLways smiLe about something. But I am stiLL deepLy hurt over my parent’s bitter, aLmost ugLy, separation of severaL years ago. Since then, my dad has Let me down over and over again.
     I am hurt everytime I go to friend’s house and sees my friend’s parents together. I am hurt everytime I hear about a father and daughter doing something together. I am hurt everytime a professor mentions famiLy. I am hurt every day.
     But every day I go to schooL, hang in, raises my hand now and then, and do my best to get the job done. And i smiLe. ALmost nobody knows how much pain is stiLL inside behind my smiLe. I hang in and stays in touch with God, even though “father” is not a word with happy memories for me.

a song for mama...

she was so young
with such innocent eyes.
she always dreamt of a fairytale life
and all the things that your money can't buy.

she thought that he was a wonderful guy
then suddenly things seemed to change
it was the moment she took on his name
he took his anger out on her face
and she kept all of her pain locked away.

oh mother, we're stronger
for all the tears you have shed
oh mother, don't look back
'cause he'll never hurt us again.
so mother i thank you
for all that you've done and still do.
YOU got ME, and I got YOU!
together we always pull through.

it was the day that he turned on the kids
that she knew she just had to leave him.
so many voices inside of her head
sayin over and over and over
"you deserve much more than this"
she was so sick of believin' the lies
and tryin to hide
covering the cuts and bruises.
so tired of defending her life
she could have died
fighting for the lives of her children.

all of your life you have spent
burying hurt and regret.
but mama, he'll never hurt us again
for everytime he tried to break you down
just remember who's still around.
it's over
and we're stronger
and we'll never have to go back again.

we always pull through...
I LOVE YOU MOM!

*A song from Cristina Aguilera.

daddy

Dear Dad,
Do you hear me at night crying myself to sleep?
Do you wish now that my secrets you could keep,
When you look into my sad eyes what do you see?
Do you think there is a future out there for me?

Do you hate me dad?
it's okay if you do.
You're not the only one dad
and that I promise you.

Dad, I just really hate to see you.
The first time in years I knew you wanted to die.
Would you ever leave me dad,
If you had that choice?
would you say that love was what you never gave or had.

I know you're drinking because of what happened to us.
Maybe even me, because I don't strive for no more fun...
But i'd hate to leave you but sometimes I know i must go.

I do love you dad because you are my father.
I know you think I am not right from wrong.
But in my heart there is no blame,
Because for mum and me you feel the same.

I just wanna thank you dad,
For the good times us as a family we ever had.

I want to be proud of you dad just like any girl should be.
Our connection i know is distant because of me.
I just want to let you know that I try,
I try and try just to be strong inside and make sure I don't die.

And I am sorry if I ever cut too deep for you.
i know you know it's true,
I know as much as you know-
You somehow love me too.

*I did not personally wrote this poem, I just edited it. I read this on the net a couple of years ago and I so love it! I give credits to the one who made this. whoever you are, thank you!