daddy

Dear Dad,
Do you hear me at night crying myself to sleep?
Do you wish now that my secrets you could keep,
When you look into my sad eyes what do you see?
Do you think there is a future out there for me?

Do you hate me dad?
it's okay if you do.
You're not the only one dad
and that I promise you.

Dad, I just really hate to see you.
The first time in years I knew you wanted to die.
Would you ever leave me dad,
If you had that choice?
would you say that love was what you never gave or had.

I know you're drinking because of what happened to us.
Maybe even me, because I don't strive for no more fun...
But i'd hate to leave you but sometimes I know i must go.

I do love you dad because you are my father.
I know you think I am not right from wrong.
But in my heart there is no blame,
Because for mum and me you feel the same.

I just wanna thank you dad,
For the good times us as a family we ever had.

I want to be proud of you dad just like any girl should be.
Our connection i know is distant because of me.
I just want to let you know that I try,
I try and try just to be strong inside and make sure I don't die.

And I am sorry if I ever cut too deep for you.
i know you know it's true,
I know as much as you know-
You somehow love me too.

*I did not personally wrote this poem, I just edited it. I read this on the net a couple of years ago and I so love it! I give credits to the one who made this. whoever you are, thank you!